Path to photographing homeless began in shock then curiosity

James Harris, 54, poses for a photo Tuesday, Oct. 3, 2017, in Los Angeles. Harris has had AIDS for 30 years, he said. When medication stopped working, he got depressed and was evicted. Now he feels like an outcast, vulnerable and struggling to survive. He's hoping that as a veteran he can get permanent housing, though he missed an earlier opportunity because a stint in a shelter disqualified him from being considered chronically homeless. (AP Photo/Jae C. Hong)
ad-papillon-banner
Playa-Linda-Ad
ad-setar-workation-banner
ad-aqua-grill-banner
265805 Pinchos- PGB promo Banner (25 x 5 cm)-5 copy

By JAE HONG  Associated Press

LOS ANGELES (AP) — I was drawn to document life on Skid Row after being repulsed by it. Initially, it wasn’t to bring awareness to the plight of the people there or to give voice to the homeless. It was more of a visual curiosity.

Tents were dwarfed by skyscrapers. People were shooting heroin and smoking crack in broad daylight. A mentally ill woman was screaming and cursing as if seeing a ghost. My first encounter with this square mile of misery nearly a decade ago remains a vivid memory. I passed through in my car and double-checked to make sure my doors were locked and windows rolled up tight. It wasn’t fear; it was shock.

When I returned a couple of years later, I was on foot with my camera. I had to experience the sights, sounds and smells up close. My role in The Associated Press’ project to document the homeless crisis on the West Coast began in late August. Except for a few days covering the Northern California wildfires and the World Series, this is all I did for nearly three months.

John Ruiz, 9, poses for a photo in front of the RV where he lives with his family on Monday, Oct. 23, 2017, in Mountain View, Calif. His parents and four siblings moved into the camper after they could no longer afford the rent in an apartment. John dreams of his family having a successful life together and maybe ending up in mansion _ a home that might have swimming pool and backyard. Or at least one big enough to have his own room.

I walked a lot and talked to a lot of people. Many generously told me their stories. Some were clearly high or mentally ill. Others were scary. People cursed me inches from my face, spittle flying from their mouths. A woman living on Skid Row told me no one would kill me there because they didn’t want trouble with the police, but they might rough me up. I saw so much of people in their rawest moments that I couldn’t bring myself to photograph some of it.

I dialed 911 four times to get help for people. One was a drug addict passed out in the middle of a street intersection on Skid Row. Another was a naked woman in a tree in Santa Ana talking to herself in Spanish. There’s always an internal struggle. As a photographer, I want to capture the moment because my job is to tell the story. As a human, the agony can be too hard to watch. Some don’t know they need help — or even that help exists.

I have sympathy for the poor. I don’t judge them now that I’ve seen so many people in dire situations and have heard about their lives. Many times I’ve tried to comfort them with encouraging words. I wish I understood the problem of homelessness better than before. Truth is, I’m more confused than ever. I can’t see a solution. Skid Row is like a planet of its own. I’m just orbiting it as an observer. One night this week, there were two long lines on the edge of downtown Los Angeles.

One was the usual line of homeless waiting for dinner at the Midnight Mission. The other, not far away, was to get into Gwen Stefani’s meet-and-greet to celebrate her holiday album “You Make It Feel Like Christmas.” My home will soon start to feel like Christmas as my wife starts decorating. There will even be Christmas on Skid Row, too. Well-meaning folks and some celebrities and politicians will dish out meals. Blankets will be given as gifts. I hope they do more than just cover up all the suffering